Will someone stop this train....

And let me off, please. Just for a day or two. It's not that big of deal, is it?

Do you ever have those days? Or weeks? I've been less than good for the past three weeks and I thought that it might help to name it and claim it for a moment. So bear with me please.

Seasonal allergies are wrecking me right now. And that's the biggest wuss comment I've ever written. My head is heavy and gray and my ears hurt. Breathing is a problem because I have asthma and it all goes straight to the lungs and I feel like I am walking a thin line. The line between being in a hospital bed on oxygen or just barely carrying on my every day life.

When I feel like this I begin to forget that I could ever feel normal again. It makes me blue all over. And there is work and birthday parties and a family that needs all the normal crud that families need. And that I like to try to deliver with a smile.

Today I was teaching, and I told my kids, flat out, 'behave or else'. (I said it with a smile, I did)

"What will you do to us, Miss Ivey?" one of them asked.

I furrowed my brow, and squinted my eyes, and put up my scary claws and hissed at him.

It felt good.

So this is me hissing.



I swear to you I was not that scary when I hissed at my sweet little student.

But that's a thought....it might buy me a few days somewhere padded and cozy!

thanx for listening!
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update! Could it be possible, that two little pills that I've been avoiding like the plague, could make me feel human again almost instantly??!! Aarrgghh and ahhhh to modern medicine!